Felt iller today than I have in a long while.
Teeth floating in and out of my mouth, I keep touching them to make sure they're still in my gums and not magically about half an inch to the side. That's how they feel. I know that can't be true but I can't keep myself from checking, just to be sure.
I've got that old electric current running through my bones - pain with every movement, no matter how slow or how fast I move.
I didn't let it slow me down much. Pain is something to roll with. You can fight one on one with pain and it's a fight I've always won.

One exciting thing: At work today I saw a musk rat! It was very large and very slow. It seemed more arrogant than indolent. I liked watching it inspecting things as if he were considering whether this branch was good enough for his world.
I saw the male heron today. He lets me and Good Ol' Dog get very close to him. He gives us the eye when were too close. If we respect his 3 foot limit we are allowed to watch him.
He ate a fish today!
I also saw a bright yellow bird and it's slightly less bright mate. They were the size of finches.
Fire red cardinals I now take for granted. The sight of them is merely my due for walking this earth. I like it best when they yell at us.
A Blue Jay yelled at us from a branch just a foot from my face! I hoped he would attack us but he was content merely to shout at me.
Sometimes reality gets splintered on me. Pain acts like a prism taking in colors and spewing out globs of blackness. I like enjoying the things I see. I like enjoying the people I meet. I like that I don't want to be too fond of anyone . . . except maybe a dog.
One thing I think is that my fondness is sometimes bigger than a lot of people's "special loves". I think that's arrogant to feel but I still think it's true.
Sometimes today I wished they sold death in a bottle, but then I'd see something that would chase that inanity from my head.
I finished my day at work with no problems other than boredom.
This morning I was pleased to note that I walked nearly 7 miles yesterday. I felt no pain then or in the morning, no pain from walking in my legs or feet anyway.
I'm going to work tomorrow and then I'm going to the doctor after.
I know what the doc will say but maybe I'm wrong.
I've been so wrong about so many things before.

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