Click images for desktop size: "Adobe And Shed-New Mexico" by Edward HooperThe buzzards are large ugly black birds.
They look so much unlike the proud hawks I saw yesterday.
Yesterday and today a full moon hung heavy in the bright blue southern sky.
It's things like this that tell me, when the only thing leading you is a disease and inertia, the only place you'll end up is in hell.
that's what my life and you might wonder why I fight to protect it, to keep it.

Once upon a time there was a cartoonist named Jules Feiffer. He was cool, beatnik cool, hippie cool, and important. His jokes were as popular as Peanuts back then, and he even appeared every month in Playboy.
He wrote a great line: “I knew I'd never get big enough to beat everybody in the world up, so my dream was to get rich enough to buy everything and then fire everybody.

He drew a cartoon I remember. He had this multiple line scratchy style. He'd drawn a Diner counterman in the hat and apron. It was a rough looking guy. This Diner Man leaned against the counter and said to an unseen customer.
”I worked as a cowboy in Montant. Jacked logs and trees up in Oregon. Did a stint as a stunt double on some bad movie down in Mexico.“
”I was a roadie for the Stones in New York and PA. Then I drifted down to Miami where I worked on a tuna boat for a spell. Got busted for vagrancy in New Orleans and spent 90 days in the Parish lock up.“
”I told this all to some guy from New York. He gave me a ten thousand dollar advance to write a book.“
I used the money to make a down payement on this diner.”
Sometimes at night I know that they're out there looking for me.“

I get upset with myself for not keeping my commitment to myself and record every day.
The only promises you have to keep are the ones you make to yourself.
If you can't keep those you'll never keep any others.