Click images for desktop size: "CWaves" by I I haven't been faithful in updating here. That disturbs me as it means I haven't been paying attention to myself, to what I'm feeling.
Usually that means I'm not feeling anything, that I'm just surviving, just coping.
That's pretty accurate.
My puppy was 1 year old on Monday. She received scads of presents. That pleases me. I was also given, by my dearest friend, a set of earbuds I'd been thinking about for months. They were a birthday present for my puppy, so that I wouldn't hear her getting into trouble. I liked that too.
Work stays tepid. I've been offered a sort of lateral promotion. This means my wages would stay the same but I would have to reside at a site, so I could save money by not paying rent and utilities.

This appeals to me in some ways, like my lease expires in 3 months, but I can't get past my reaction - feeling that I don't want to be at my job 24/7!
Other than that I've been coping, doing pain management and trying not to snap at people. Next week I'm going to do some speed classes with the team member (my high school football team) who want to get better.
I like the kids. They have dreams and they have the drive to fight for them. They look to me as someone who has tread the path and knows what it takes to take the next step.
Only a couple of them understand the physical value of the work we're doing. Those few also gasp the mental discipline that this work involves as I train not only their muscles and nerves but their hearts (figuratively as well as literally).
I'm going to try and keep up with this here. I had to pay for another year of hosting so there's nothing but good reasons to continue - even in the face of the spam attacks. (Words blacklisted in comments is getting impressive - erectile, viagra etc)

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