I’m all out of threats

The Day We Met For Coffee - J3 Concepts
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Sometimes there’s just an empty space. It doesn’t want filling.
I don’t know exactly what that means, but I know how it feels.
Sometimes I miss being innocent.
It Came From Outer Space
My blood levels are getting better. Much better, normal really, but there are these odd spikes. So I talked to my old doctor.
No more coffee . . . or I can have decaf coffee. I’ve no big problem with that but its just another small pleasure, another enjoyable vice taken away. He also thinks its dangerous for me to be a vegetarian. No red meat but I should be eating chicken, turkey, that kind of stuff.
I don’t like my body dictating this much to me.
Except for this I’ve been stud healthy most of my life. No allergies, no chronic this or that. Never ever even had an earache. Nothing hurt me badly at all. Except other people, but that would be the case for most of us I’d figure.
So I really don’t have any experience dealing with this. I don’t know how to gracefully accept a limitation imposed on me by my body. My body was always my friend. Now it feels like its not.
The way I’ve been dealing with it is the same bull headed way I deal with everything: Get my head down and bull through it. Ignoring everything, every stitch every bloody cut and patching up what can’t be ignored until . . . I almost wrote “until its too late” instead of typing the thought in my head which was “until I have time”.
I should just whine better. Learn to be graceful in the face of this. I realize I don’t have a clue as to what that graceful attitude would be. If it even exists.
Praying Mantis - WallpaperManiac
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There was someone I was dating along time ago. It didn’t last long. She wasn’t dating me, she was dating some image of me that may or may not have ever existed. She didn’t like me being morose and said to me, “You never heard about Jackie Kennedy being all morose when her husband got shot!”
Now I wonder what she wanted to convey, other then making me look at her as if she were a slime encrusted gastropod alien. And the thought “Where do I meet people like this . . . oh yeah, Hollywood.
But I don’t know how to behave as gracefully as Jackie Kennedy. Somebody probably wrote a book about it. A book I’d most likely never read.

I’ve figured out the AJAX code to get the little pop-up windows of the web sites on my links page. It works great Jail Baiton the local server but choked when I went live. Which is how I discovered what every first year Computer Student already knows, for security reasons you can’t make an XMLGetRequest to another server or another domain via the browser . . . You can, however, get the server to make a proxy request to a third server.
As soon as I figure out what that means I plan to get right on it. Or kludge together a brilliant work around . . . or at least make up something that will work.

And today I’m using Beta 27 of ecto. I still like the app a lot. It finally solved one major issue for me. It now properly uploads the pictures to the server. That means I don’t have to go and manually create the thumbnails then open an ftp app and upload the things. This way is much quicker and easier.
And I am so busy that I NEED the 45 or 50 seconds that normally takes.
The layout tools have shown a marked improvement as well. Now it is possible for it to use my css file and create the layout exactly as it would appear instead of me either guesstimating or firing up the local server and examining it that way.
I still use MarsEdit to add in the extra span tags and special styles. That may be force of habit. Or the fact that I have all the code snippets stored inside of MarsEdit. I guess my next big adventure will be to try and do a post solely in ecto.
I’m also getting yancy (there’s a word you haven’t heard since your grandfather bounced you on his knee) waiting for the next Leopard Update. It supposedly will fix my biggest issues!
I wish Mac and iPod etc hadn’t gotten so successful. It used to be that Apple was mainly worried about keeping their customers happy now they’re just trying to become Microsoft.

And I am still excited about the Super Bowl. I want to see the Patriots play.
But its been so dull so far. I mean, Plaxico Buress predicting that the Patriots will only score 17 points is hardly deeply interesting. Nor is the state of Tom Brady’s ankle that fascinating.
There’s no great hype, no deep analysis of each teams match-ups, that sort of thing.
I’ve been hearing more about commercials than the game. More about the money than the game.
Although I did just learn today that one of my Texas players signed with the Bengals! Which is great football news.

Its hard to find from here

Applicants by Luke Fildes
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Went out with the dogs today.
Bitter cold. Plenty of snow to cover the ice.
I fell while carrying the little blind dog over a section of salty slush that was hurting his feet. I twisted to make sure i didn’t crush him. That was the only image I kept while I was falling. I managed to avoid doing that so I torqued my back.
All Quiet On The Western Front The little guy didn’t think anything of the fall. I guess when you’re small and blind getting whooshed around must seem like a normal state of affairs.
My puppy was very solicitous. She tried to lick me and actually walked with me for a few hundred yards. Normally she likes to ride point and bark at any dangerous leaves or squirrels.
We finished the walk and our few chores just tromping through the snow and telling each other dog jokes.
When I got home my back started to hurt pretty badly. The kind where the pain is vomit inducing, a bilious green pain.
I did my exercises. I’ll sleep on the floor tonight and hope it will be better in the morning.
The good news is that my blood levels are responding as expected to finally having my drugs. This is good because it delays the inevitable of having to go on insulin or worse.

I’m watching the Fiesta Bowl.
West Virginia is winning my heart with the way they’re playing. After being so nastily rejected by their coach they could have just rolled over. Instead they’re playing like spurned lovers or step children getting back at their parents.
Its the oddest thing, emotions for an athlete. You want your D-line psyched and crazy. Screaming for blood. You need your secondary psyched but right on the edge so that they not only react reflexively but also have no haze so they can read and decipher their opponents movements.
Dashboard
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Line backers and offense have to be cool, intelligent. Time has to move slowly for them. Adrenalin has to be used in a different way – shut down and recalled when needed.
Its a hard balance for a coach to keep in his team. Its hard to recognize it in a player sometimes. Harder to teach.
Right now I’d say that this interim coach has done a superb job in all facets of the game.

We’re alone now.
My puppies and me.
We’re fine. My friend is off on her dream job. And that’s comforting.
I often feel alone but I can’t think of a time when I’ve ever felt lonely.
I wonder if that’s a character defect.

Captain Midnight The insane hit count searching for the Captain America picture continues. Its interesting how many of the searches are from government offices, federal, state and local; even quite a few military. I’ve no idea what sparked this level of interest in the character. I thought it was the announcement of the movie but that doesn’t seem to justify that much activity.
The ultra positive is how well the new hosting service is handling the load.
They’re a relatively big host and I had concerns about them being so big and the level of service. this is winning me over pretty completely.
Also pleased with the way Movable Type is handling the references from the old WordPress script. If people would look a touch harder they’d find what they’re looking for.

Back to the game for all of us.